the man is feeling lazy ...
no train since monday
tues-got my pedal n spd shoe for my bike
wed-off but i slack at home fixed my pedal on the bike
thurs-sick
fri-put out my last tooth from the top left super deep n pain
sat-sick + mouth pain auntie let me off 1 hour early so work 2pm-9pm
sun-today thought of going to run after work but ant call me for a game lol slack
so left how many days to ivp? i just need to run well in my own event...
as for a team? LOSE!
no team man... long d is long d mid d is mid d short d is short d no team man
in my thought team work is kind of most cunning scheme because
each is USING each other , which mean taking advantage of each other.
1 is weak so many gather to win common goal which is a hidden evil skill
win with less satisfactory ,your victory is shared
which many fail to see
do i make sense?
how many can conquer loneliness ? a soloist ? fear of being alone ? why? do we need friends all the time of just for a while. wont u be a better person is u conquer your thoughts- the mental power.
ain't money + power the road to loneliness cos no real friend, all are slave under control.
if your life is preprogram - ain't your friend part of the system that either cos viral or useful to u (taking advantage) what if your brain is causing a false feel of life like what u see is already been seen, just need to be unlock by exploration. what u touch and feel is a fake sensation. what if u reach a state u gain true sight, what u see is like a wallpaper tear it with your hand scratch in the air. sound like matrix but if we are something in the matrix instead of being control by the robot we create. are u brave enough to know the truth or u just wait until we die. maybe when we die we can go back to the "true world" n reprogram n enter the game again another baby to elder life. what if 1 hour in the true world is 99 year in the program. a 1 hour fun of "real rpg role playing game" instead of playing a character, u play yourself with many endings and path to take during your living years. just a imaginative thought. like a more powerful version of SIMS.

we are alone in our blue world
No God create us
Lord is a controller of slave
i will not call any 1 my lord other than myself
we are more like descendants of the devil the devil many detest.
CARRY THE SIN WITH US IS A TRUE ACT OF SELFLESS SACRIFICE.